I used to be afraid
of my own rusted screens
the brown palms
of my hands on their overtime
like the hills
you swept them under
I cannot price
of the language we use now
there is a bitterness
there is an equality
it is very much of these flowers
the problem of the personality has been solved
It was solved not for x or y
but this golden field
this nubile cloud above it
You can be as many-souled
as the things the butterfly was
You can wobble in ecstasy
be an unreliable narrator for your family
your loved ones
They may want to do a cavity search
of your mind
Many of the people I know or knew
are in it. No, not the official version.
The government hasn’t shepherded any of them
into their new identities. They’ve done it themselves.
It’s because of something unseeable that they’ve seen
or seen done. Or something they’ve done themselves.
The people who meet them think they’re meeting them fresh.
And I suppose they are. They’re other people now.
Yes, it is true you are going to prison. It’s not just jittery jail this time. Yeah, it’s true that you will probably receive many insults. People in prison can be very bitchy. There will be many thirsty, daggery insult queens in there. Skinny dudes with terror hiding behind their eyes, their swift tongues. But you will also receive some compliments. Any time there is forced socialization in extremely close quarters, there will be those obligatory insults. Monkeys mark territory with words as cats do with piss. Snaps are territorial pissings, etc. But think. Forced socialization also breeds compliments. You will cause some real head-turning. Sometimes you will receive glowing reviews. You may even blush. So if you are able to focus only on the compliments, you may actually come out of prison with improved self-esteem. You may think it is impossible but look at Eldridge Cleaver. And you’re not even a rapist. But. The truth is you have no friends, you hide from everyone. And now you have the possibility of making friends again. Think of it as the first day of kindergarten. You do have skills. You can teach a murderer to read Jane Austen. Angels will sit on your balls. For doing the good work of karma. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing. I realize you won’t have access to your Etsy. I’m sorry. But that doesn’t mean you have to stop knitting.